September 27, 2011

Some days are made for smoking.

I am a former smoker. It's been almost 3 years since I officially quit. Quitting was, hands-down, one of the best decisions I made. I really have no want to start again.

Except...

when I'm stressed.

Seriously, I don't know what it is but every 6-8 months, I decide I'm too stressed out, and the only thing that will help me clam down is to smoke a cigarette. It's usually only one, sometimes two or three, but I haven't bought a pack since I quit. I just bum one at work and go about my day.

For some reason, my crazy brain still thinks that a cigarette is the answer to my crazyness.

I smoked this morning. Just one, and I doubt I'll smoke again today and probably not even for a few months. And the truth is, I felt better!

When I came back inside, I felt relaxed and happier than when I had gone outside. It's probably completely psychosomatic, but that's how I felt.

I just wish when I was stressed that my brain didn't automatically go to "Put some chemicals in your body. Those always do the trick."

Any former smokers still indulge once in a while? Please, make me feel better and tell me I'm not the only one :-)

4 comments:

Katie said...

Never been a smoker, but I can definitely imagine how it would be a stress reliever every now and then.

MN @ Serenity and Style said...

almost all former smokers i know indulge once in a while, i quit in october and haven't had one since jan, but man..when i'm stressed, i always want one. so no you are not alone :)

Lei said...

I was a smoker then I quit and would indulge when I feel down or stressed, but eventually I stopped craving and couldn't stand it anymore.:)

Miranda said...

I've been a closet smoker the past two years, but my brother just got me an electronic cigarette called e-go & it's great. Haven't had a cigarette since.

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