when I'm stressed.
Seriously, I don't know what it is but every 6-8 months, I decide I'm too stressed out, and the only thing that will help me clam down is to smoke a cigarette. It's usually only one,
For some reason, my crazy brain still thinks that a cigarette is the answer to my crazyness.
I smoked this morning. Just one, and I doubt I'll smoke again today and probably not even for a few months. And the truth is, I felt better!
When I came back inside, I felt relaxed and happier than when I had gone outside. It's probably completely psychosomatic, but that's how I felt.
I just wish when I was stressed that my brain didn't automatically go to "Put some chemicals in your body. Those always do the trick."
Any former smokers still indulge once in a while? Please, make me feel better and tell me I'm not the only one :-)