Maybe you should have thought about that, when you were cheating.

He got up early, as he always does. I laid in bed, and watched the light stream from the bathroom until he closed the door, so only a small line shone through between the bottom of the door and the carpet.

He dressed quietly and kissed me on the forehead before leaving for work.

"See you later," he whispered.

"Mmhmm," I mumbled in response. "Remember, I won't be here tonight. I'll have dinner waiting for you."

"You're the best. I love you, " he said before exiting the bedroom, bringing the door to a close behind him.

I heard him start the car, and listened intently until I could no longer hear his car on our street.I stumbled out of bed and saw a tiny, blinking light coming from my purse.

"Good morning, beautiful. Is he gone yet?" the text read.

"He is, I'll be leaving before he gets back. I miss you."

"I miss you, too. Can't wait to see you."

"Soon." I responded, and put my phone away.

I went through the day almost robot-like, finishing up the laundry, cleaning the bathroom and the kitchen. As my body performed the tasks, my mind wandered-the anticipation of leaving tonight was my guiding light.

I pulled out the chicken and vegetables from the refrigerator and grabbed the crock pot from the cabinet. I chopped the vegetables but couldn't feel the knife in my hands. It rocked back and forth on the cutting board, slicing though celery, then carrots. I stared blankly forward, eyes transfixed on some imaginary point miles and miles away, while the knife continued it's rhythmic motion, apparently propelled by my own hand.

I sliced the chicken breasts, adding them into the mixture of vegetables. It all looked so pretty together, the crisp green and vibrant orange, the spices dusting the top of the ingredients, and the chicken settling at the bottom, a cool, pale pink.

I pulled my eyes away from the meal I had just prepared and began to get ready. As I showered, the scents from the kitchen wafted into my bedroom. It smells to rich and warm, I thought as I inhaled deeply.

I fixed my hair and applied my make up. My black dress called to me from the depths of my closet. I hadn't worn it in so long, but I slipped into it and faced myself in the mirror.

I felt silly, and dangerous, and excited and anxious. I didn't recognize myself. A pair of black heels completed the look that was anything but my own.

Tonight, this is me, I reassured myself.

As I walked out the door, I could smell dinner. At the last minute, I turned around and stepped back into the kitchen. I scribbled a note:

"I hope you had a good day! Enjoy your dinner-love you xoxo"

It soothed my conscious just enough to slip out the door and not have to look back again.

This is in response to a prompt at The Lightening and The Lightening Bug: Hunger.

Place your bets, I want you to place your bets, Why don't you just place your bets on me?

This past weekend, a few friends and I went to the casino to celebrate one of my friends birthday! We ended up gambling a little bit and then going to the club inside the casino. I had to work in the morning so I didn't stay too late, but we all still had a pretty good time :-)

I'm pretty sure this was the only time I actually won anything!

(Notice the penny slots lol)

The birthday girl with her comp card

Some of our group playing slots

My pretty friend Sider-love this girl!

She was doing a lot better than I lol

I spent two dollars and didn't even bother to cash out my $.46 at the end of the night haha

Came up in the spot and grabbed the beat like a pressure point.

Last week, my friend Casey came up and went to check out a concert at this bar in Ann Arbor. I much prefer seeing concerts in small venues than at a big stadium, and the Blind Pig is the definition of a small venue-I was less than a five feet away from the stage for most of the concert-and it was so fun!

We knew it was going to be packed so we got there early and got some seats right by the stage. The first opening act was a guy from Kalamazoo, named Casper Da Ghost. He was ok, I cant really hate on him but I also couldn't understand him and he was just rapping over other peoples beats, but he brought up some like 15 year old kid to preform a song with him and he killed it-it was ridic.

Not really a good pic, but just to see how close we were-and this was when we weren't by the stage, we were just sitting off to the side.

Next up, was LA Da Darkman, who is a Wu Tang affiliate, and pretty great. The whole bar was hyped after he was done. He was just chilling after his set so my friend a nd I went up and talked with him and took some pictures with him. He was super cool and really chill.

Finally, the headliner came on and the whole crowd just went crazy. Royce Da 5'9" absolutely killed it. There was rumors that Em would show up, but instead he brought Kid Vishis who is Royce's little brother. The energy was just ridiculous and it was such a blast. I was basically in the second row and was close enough to touch them (which I did haha). My favorite part was when Vishis did an A Capella rap, and the whole crowd was dead silent until he finished and everyone just went crazy!

Vishis and Royce-we were so close, they were pouring shots of Patron for everyone in the front row lol

After the show, we went to Steak n' Shake before heading back to my place. I was so exhausted, I fell asleep pretty much as soon as I laid down!

I told him to smile and this is what I got-such a grump lol

I wanna love you and treat you right, I wanna love you every day and every night.

Today I'm linking up with Jaime today for What I'm Loving Wednesday!



So here are a few things I'm loving lately....

I'm loving being tan (even though it's September!) Seriously, I didn't have a tan *all summer*. Go to the ball park Sept. 1, and get the best tan I've had all year.

I'm loving Tha Carter IV. I have been waiting for this album since Tha Carter III and I'm soooo happy it's out now! I've been pretty much listening to it non-stop!


I'm loving my wonderful mother who has been so helpful when I come over and always makes sure whatever she's making for dinner is GF. It's made things so much easier with her help! Moms are the best!

And speaking of my mom...

I'm loving my parents who celebrated their 28 year anniversary last week!

Even though I joke with them, I'll be so very blessed if I'm able to find someone who I love as much as they love each other.

What are ya'll loving today?

Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever, that you've been gone.

I feel like I just imagined you in my bed. Your hands running through my hair as I laughed nervously. I'm trying to convince myself to be content, to be thankful you were there at all.

But I'm greedy. It's been too long and I want you back.

There was always an excuse- the timing, the place, this girl, that boy. But we always came back to each other. The excuses are gone- now its just me and you and years of waiting.

Are you scared? I know I am, so I don't blame you. Just come back. Come back and we'll talk. Because I'm not scared when I'm with you.

Was I dreaming when you pulled me close? When I reached out to touch you, like I've wanted for so long, was it even real?

I've wanted this for so long. We both have.

There's nothing in our way.

So what's stopping us?

Internet relationships are not real. Your heart people steal but identities conceal.

AOL. America Online.

Every few days it seemed, a new cd would come in the mail. I'd take it dutifully to my father and beg him to put it on the computer. He would load the latest version and when he was done, the familiar voice would call out:

"You've got mail!"

My brother and I would climb onto the desk to check our email. I was barely 10, but being online soon became my favorite activity.

I would navigate through websites and chat rooms with ease. I didn't understand why my mother and father had problems with something that came so naturally to me. The mouse felt like an extension of me, one I never even knew was missing until we reconnected.

The internet seemed to call to me, to pull me in. I wanted to do nothing else but sit in front of the glowing computer screen. My parents would call from the other room:

"It's bed time now! Get off the computer! Say goodbye to your friends!"

"I'm coming, I'm coming..." I'd mumble back, not really having heard what they said.

Finally, my dad would come into the room and stand over my shoulder.

"Nothing good happens after 10 o'clock, in real life or online."

Every night an argument would ensue, and I was always on the losing end.

And he was right-nothing good ever did happen. I broke all of the internet safety rules my teachers and parents tried to instill in me

Don't talk to strangers? But they seem so harmless!

Don't give anyone my phone number? But how else am I supposed to talk to my new friends when you kick me off the computer at 10?

Don't share personal information? But they're my friends...

Without a second thought, I had become an online predators fantasy-naive and trusting.

I, like every teen, thought I was immune-Those horror stories on the TV surely won't happen to little old me.

And I got lucky. They didn't.

Only recently have I realized the danger I could have put myself in. And also recently, I learned my Dad was so very right-

"Nothing good happens after 10 o'clock, in real life or online."

This post is in response to a remembeRED prompt at Write on Edge-recall your early memories of being online.

I'm the guy that dies in the beginning of the movie

I don't currently have cable, so I've been watching a lot of movies. Usually, I go to the library and rent movies (My library has a great collection of documentaries which I love!) but lately, I'm addicted to RedBox! I had a few codes to get some free rentals and even without those, it's only $1! Can't really beat that!

Since moving in, I've watched a few that I really liked and one that was not as funny as I expected :-(

First, I was Just Go With It, with Adam Sandler and Jennifer Aniston.

Let me preface by saying that Adam Sandler is one of my favorite actors (Big Daddy is one of my all time favorite movies), and this did not disappoint! I thought he was so funny and Jennifer Aniston, too! Between this and Horrible Bosses, she's becoming quite the little comedienne, isn't she? The plot itself was kind of silly and predictable, but I thought the jokes more than made up for it. Plus, I love the Andy Roddick cameo at the end! (PS I loved the soundtrack from this-it was a bunch of mash-ups!)

The second one I liked was Hall Pass with Owen Wilson and Jason Sudeikis.

It was pretty funny, too, though I though the supporting actors and actresses were the funniest parts. I just love Jenna Fisher and Christina Applegate and they were both funny in this. And there were some definite parts that had me laughing out loud.

The third one I rented I wasn't really happy with. I got The Dilemma with Vince Vaughn and Kevin James. I love love love both of them, so I was a little upset that this wasn't really funny...at all. They tried, but the jokes just fell flat :-( I can't be too mad since it was free, so I'll just wait till they have another movie come out to redeem themselves lol

Have you guys seen any good movies lately? Any recommendations?